The Beginning

I have always thought this is silly. I have never understood why people blog. Seems like it is arrogant or self-aggrandizing to think that anyone else would want to read my thoughts. But here I am. Here I am starting one on my own. I might get it now. It doesn't even matter if anyone reads this. It is just for me to get my thoughts out there. Maybe a way to clear my head or cleanse my soul...if, as a by-product, someone finds it interesting, so be it.

So this is the beginning of my soul-searching experiment. I am trying to see if I can get my head on straight - to wrap my brain around the internal dialogue that is blocking my progress on so many levels. I desperately need to make some changes and I find my brain committing to change, but then I emotionally give up and find any old excuse to give up on the change.

The list of things I want to work on is extensive...here it is, in no particular order:

1. Eating under control - I have to stop over-eating ans eating junk food

2. Exercise - I get none t and I really want to do it. Just need to figure out how to fit it in

3. Patience - I do not have enough patience with anyone -me, my husband, my kids...

4. Happiness - finding it....not sure where it went, but it seems a little elusive these days

5. Financial house in order - have to get the debt and spending under control

6. Relationships - need to foster some, repair others, let go of the dead weight once and for all.

7. Act more, whine less - I complain about the state of the world and do nothing to change it.

I guess that is enough to start with. Certainly there is more...but this is only the Beginning.